Michael was diagnosed with bowel cancer three weeks ago. On Wednesday after a five hour operation the wonderful surgeon said he had got everything out and we now just wait for pathology to see if he needs chemo. So much has changed because of this diagnosis, the children are no longer children, they have grown up overnight and turned into adults, my beautiful dogs have been rehomed and the love of my life is silent in a hospital ward coming to terms with what has happened. The good news is that they caught it early, he is young and fit and healthy to be struck by this and he will recover.
I have cried so much, found comfort in so many people and continued to find comfort in my camera, I have used it as a tool in which to see the beauty outside the situation we have found ourselves in and have continued to find a photo a day on instagram. I take pictures in the hospital in the knowledge that I will put them away in a drawer once this is over. I carry my camera with me every day to the hospital and even if I don't take it out, I find myself looking for colours, patterns and things to photograph to keep my mind from dwelling.
I know it will get better, I realise that blogs really are a good release, I apologise to anyone who doesn't want to read about our troubles and would rather read about pretty things.